Shivasnaavocado

A few people have asked me why I decided to start a blog. I found it difficult to form a good response to this question because I guess I wasn't totally sure myself. Part of me wanted to do it so I could share little stories and photos of my kids. Part of me liked the idea of using my brain a little more and attempting to form a complete sentence. And then, when I least expected it, something happened to me at yoga last week that put everything into perspective for me.

It was the end of the 90 minute class and I was laying on my mat during Shivasna. For those of you who are not familiar with yoga, shivasna is where we lay down and practice deep, meaningful breathing and are supposed to clear our mind of everything. We are supposed to focus simply on our breathing and nothing else. Typically I am pretty good at this. In fact, it may be my favorite part of yoga because it's really the only time I have in my life to make sure I'm remembering to breathe at all. On this particular day I was struggling to focus. Perhaps it was our sub teacher who at close to 70 years old was in better shape than I could ever hope to be and was a little more militant in her teachings than our regular instructor. I was laying there trying to focus on my breathing when all of a sudden I realized I wanted an avocado. I wanted one really bad. And then the thought process took over and away it went. Within the next 26 seconds I thought (try to stay with me here):

I want an avocado
I want to stop at Meijer on my way home and get an avocado but I can't because my friend (who drove with me) needs to be home by 11:30 and there's no way we'd make it.
Maybe if I run in and try to pay for it at Starbucks. No, Starbucks really isn't part of Meijer, it's just inside of Meijer.
Wow..Meijer has a lot of produce and who the heck does the inventory for Meijer and how long would that take?
What would happen if Meijer burned down? The other grocery stores in town would be really busy trying to keep up with the demand.
Kristin, focus! Shame on you, you are not supposed to be thinking about anything right now! What is wrong with you?

When I later relayed this to my brother (who also does yoga) he said "Uh, huh..and?". I asked him if he thought this was strange that I was thinking of an avocado (and all the rest) when I was not supposed to be thinking about anything. He said "you were probably thinking about an avocado because it has that big seed, like a core and you were focusing on breathing and your core". Um, no Ryan, I was thinking about an avocado sliced and stuffed in a tortilla with some turkey and tomato.

So maybe you see where I am going with this and maybe you are very confused but the reality that came from this experience for me was that I need an outlet to let my thought processes go wild. My brain works at an alarming rate and before I know it I have woven this ridiculous web of chaos inside my mind and it needs somewhere to go. So, maybe this will be the last time you visit my blog or maybe you're just getting started because let me tell you, I'm just getting started. I have a lot to say. Stay tuned...and don't forget to breathe.